I was dealing with a bout of cuckold angst recently, and came to the conclusion that there isn’t that much to found online with regards to the angst a cuckold sometimes goes through while watching his woman with her bull…which is surprising because it’s the one emotion that leaves you nearly defenseless as a cuckold.
I think I can speak on behalf of all cuckolds when I say that, despite the excitement and compersion inherent in watching or waiting for your woman while she’s with her lover, we’re all faced with a sharp, “cuckold-angst” punch in the gut at some point.
Yes, at some point, most of us cuckolds invited cuckolding into our lives in some way or another, and the idea of experiencing various kinky cuckolding moments drives us crazy, but sometimes, the reality of processing what you’re watching or going through is just too much to wrap your head around…and before you know it, the ‘insecure cuckold’ part of you shifts aside the ‘confident cuckold’ part of you, and slams down on the panic button…
Alot of it is also directly related to how much you genuinley care for and love your woman. If she’s your soul mate, and you’d do just about anything for her, then you’re guarenteed to experience the full emotional cuckold-angst rollercoaster ride at some point. It’s a feeling like no other on this earth. I literally cannot compare it to any other emotion or sensation I’ve ever felt outside of cuckolding…
This particular emotion, and all the intricate thoughts and feelings involved in watching the love of your life in the strong arms of another man are completely lost on men who feel little to no emotional connection with their wives (anymore).
It’s the very fact that you so deeply love and adore your woman that makes it so exhilerating and real for all parties involved. We all have unique triggers, and different cuckolding moments that create
the largest ripples in our cuckold minds…and sometimes while searching for those triggers, and toying with different cuckold scenario’s, you end up getting over-eager. You notice something that makes you mildly uneasy,…maybe it’s the way she’s looking deep into his eyes, or the fact that you can’t quite hear what it is she’s whispering to him, or if you’re waiting at home, the fact that she’s not answering her phone despite giving you her word that she would…whatever it is, it’s unplanned and it’s something that inexplicably threatens you ever so slightly.
Suddenly, and usually without much warning, you find yourself in uncharted territory. You’ve momentarily lost control of the situation. You’re out of your cuckolding comfort zone, which is not always a bad thing, but what do you do? Your woman is clearly lost in the moment, and loving every second of it,…maybe she’s even loving the fact that you’re going through such conflicting emotions… Intervening feels so selfish and wrong, but so does sitting there doing nothing about it. That’s cuckold angst. It’s impossible to know how best to deal with it, or even how you’re going to deal with it when it happens to you…but again, speaking for myself, what I do know, is that when the evening is done, and I’m alone with my woman again, the only way out of that particular maze is through ‘aftercare’.
Aftercare, to me, is my woman letting me know just how much she loves me. It’s her taking out enough time and energy to remind me how none of this kinky hotwifing fun would be possible without me. Things like that… A little reassurance goes a long way in settling a cuckold restless and anxious with cuckold-angst thoughts…
Having said that though, you do reach a point after all the drama, where you’ve just gotta suck it in, man up, and accept that whatever happened, happened and that she doesn’t love or adore you any less…and move the fuck on… :-)
Anyway, works for us, so I just thought I’d share my 2 cents…
I think I can speak on behalf of all cuckolds when I say that, despite the excitement and compersion inherent in watching or waiting for your woman while she’s with her lover, we’re all faced with a sharp, “cuckold-angst” punch in the gut at some point.
Yes, at some point, most of us cuckolds invited cuckolding into our lives in some way or another, and the idea of experiencing various kinky cuckolding moments drives us crazy, but sometimes, the reality of processing what you’re watching or going through is just too much to wrap your head around…and before you know it, the ‘insecure cuckold’ part of you shifts aside the ‘confident cuckold’ part of you, and slams down on the panic button…
Alot of it is also directly related to how much you genuinley care for and love your woman. If she’s your soul mate, and you’d do just about anything for her, then you’re guarenteed to experience the full emotional cuckold-angst rollercoaster ride at some point. It’s a feeling like no other on this earth. I literally cannot compare it to any other emotion or sensation I’ve ever felt outside of cuckolding…
This particular emotion, and all the intricate thoughts and feelings involved in watching the love of your life in the strong arms of another man are completely lost on men who feel little to no emotional connection with their wives (anymore).
It’s the very fact that you so deeply love and adore your woman that makes it so exhilerating and real for all parties involved. We all have unique triggers, and different cuckolding moments that create
the largest ripples in our cuckold minds…and sometimes while searching for those triggers, and toying with different cuckold scenario’s, you end up getting over-eager. You notice something that makes you mildly uneasy,…maybe it’s the way she’s looking deep into his eyes, or the fact that you can’t quite hear what it is she’s whispering to him, or if you’re waiting at home, the fact that she’s not answering her phone despite giving you her word that she would…whatever it is, it’s unplanned and it’s something that inexplicably threatens you ever so slightly.
Suddenly, and usually without much warning, you find yourself in uncharted territory. You’ve momentarily lost control of the situation. You’re out of your cuckolding comfort zone, which is not always a bad thing, but what do you do? Your woman is clearly lost in the moment, and loving every second of it,…maybe she’s even loving the fact that you’re going through such conflicting emotions… Intervening feels so selfish and wrong, but so does sitting there doing nothing about it. That’s cuckold angst. It’s impossible to know how best to deal with it, or even how you’re going to deal with it when it happens to you…but again, speaking for myself, what I do know, is that when the evening is done, and I’m alone with my woman again, the only way out of that particular maze is through ‘aftercare’.
Aftercare, to me, is my woman letting me know just how much she loves me. It’s her taking out enough time and energy to remind me how none of this kinky hotwifing fun would be possible without me. Things like that… A little reassurance goes a long way in settling a cuckold restless and anxious with cuckold-angst thoughts…
Having said that though, you do reach a point after all the drama, where you’ve just gotta suck it in, man up, and accept that whatever happened, happened and that she doesn’t love or adore you any less…and move the fuck on… :-)
Anyway, works for us, so I just thought I’d share my 2 cents…
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